UGGHH!! Little Monster.

Bad day. My headache is HUGE. My house is a mess. It looks like a beautiful day outside but I would not know.

Lucy has been very challenging for me, so much so I wish I was at work rather than home, like forever. I think it is 'funny' when people ask how my day off was because I am mentally and physically exhausted by nap time and today - NO NAP. I think I only broke down in tears 3 or 4 times today. Is it normal to feel your heartbeat in your fingertips?

Lucy is more than a handful for me. She will not sit and play or sit and watch a movie or let me sit. :( I think I need a full time helper because I literally feel like I am losing myself. I can not remember the last time I actually thought about something for more than 5 minutes.

Tomorrow on my 'day off'. OT Evaluation one hour 11 am- Speech Therapy 45 minutes 2:00- Mind u somehow my house has to be put back together by tonight for the visitors. Oh and our dishwasher is completely and officially dead. I guess I could do as my MIL told me to do' clean all your dishes right after you dirty them'. Now if that was not the cherry on top I don't know what is.

Poor me right? Well, I was just letting everyone know in case I did not awake in the morning due to exhaustion or a stroke of some sort. These would be the reasons. Bad Day.

just some new pics

it has been some time since the last message went up here, so we thought we would just throw in some pics. no new stories to tell yet. on the warmer days, we have been bringing lucy to the playgrounds around here and took her biking along the Erie canal and fed some of the birds. she is making good effort to talk more, a couple of words together type talking.