we spend too much time on youtube, and you will know this to be true in just about 2 minutes. enjoy - this video is pretty wild.
Friday, December 28, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
Life is...
There once was a story about Rip VanWinkel and today he kinda reminded me of ....me. He was the man that slept for 20 years and when he woke he did not recognize the world anymore.
In adoption "years" 16 months feels like 20 years. The hopes that we once had seem to constantly change or fade with every passing day. We see everyone else living life to their fullest and our world has stood still. I know in the beginning, I felt so young and excited and now I just feel like I am tired and a lot older. Trust me, it has been a lot longer of a road than 16 months. It has been 3 years actually.
Our world is kind of like a dream world. We are constantly reminded that we are different than everyone else. Only a small percentage of others can truly know how we feel.
We hold our heads up high and smile when we are around other people and then slumber to sleep when we leave them. Sleeping is my favorite thing to do. I fall to sleep imagining my little girl. Watching her play and smile. Talk and grow. Then I wake again and realize it was all just a Rip Van Winkle. That is what I call it now. Life is just a Rip Van Winkle.
I also realize we are going to miss the first year of her little life at the very least. Her first smile, and tooth, and laugh and all the little "big" things that she will experience without us there.
So thats it. This blog is about our journey to Lucy and these feelings are a large part of it. It just isn't fair.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
seriously...the coolest thing i have ever seen
right off the bat, this post has nothing to do with adoption.
so i was reading my latest men's journal, the one with jack nicholson on the cover, and there is an article inside about the latest craze in BASE jumping. it is called terrain flying with a wingsuit. it is wild, and i cannot watch enough of it. they have come up with a suit that mimics a flying squirrel, with webbing between the arms and body, and between the legs, and it allows someone to, well, fly. now, while the laws of gravity still play a part, these guys can fly away from a mountain, actually get horizontal. it is wild. many of them find free-flying out of a plane boring since you cannot tell how fast or how far you have flown, so that is why you will see them terrain flying, which means they get within a couple of feet of the side of the mountain.
check out these videos. i wish i had the intestinal fortitude to actually do this.
so i was reading my latest men's journal, the one with jack nicholson on the cover, and there is an article inside about the latest craze in BASE jumping. it is called terrain flying with a wingsuit. it is wild, and i cannot watch enough of it. they have come up with a suit that mimics a flying squirrel, with webbing between the arms and body, and between the legs, and it allows someone to, well, fly. now, while the laws of gravity still play a part, these guys can fly away from a mountain, actually get horizontal. it is wild. many of them find free-flying out of a plane boring since you cannot tell how fast or how far you have flown, so that is why you will see them terrain flying, which means they get within a couple of feet of the side of the mountain.
check out these videos. i wish i had the intestinal fortitude to actually do this.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Baby news...
Congratulations Jamie Lynn Spears, I am sure you will be a great mother. You have such great role models in your family to look up to!!
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Blizzard
Well, they say we will have up to 14 inches of snow fall between tonight and tomorrow. I LOVE the idea of being snowed in and snuggly but I have been called to jury duty 7:30 am Monday morning. Wonder what happens if I can not get out of my driveway?????
Kind of hanging low today, tired and have been obsessing about Lucy a little bit too much. I really miss her. Sounds crazy since I have not even met her, but I do. Oh well.
This little girl makes me smile! I hope we get to go see her SOOON. Our shiny little PENNY!
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Rough Weekend, again
This is a picture of our friend Brandon. He was shot and killed last Saturday while he was out with his friends hunting. We attended his calling hours Friday night along with 1500 other people and his funeral talk on Saturday. It was a REALLY hard weekend. I feel bad even saying that considering what his family is going through. We will miss seeing him and hearing his contagious laugh. It is crazy how quickly life can change. We have had several reasons to reflect on our life lately. This weekend was a bigee.
About a month ago, he had written his young son a touching letter, letting him know how much he loved being his dad and how much he treasured the time they spent together. The memorial speaker, John's brother, read it toward the end of his talk. When he lost it part way thru, so did everyone in attendance. That was so hard to hear. We saw Brandon and his family three weekends ago at our Special Day assembly and he was asking us all about Lucy and when we will get her. He loved being a dad. Come to find out, his wife is pregnant again with his 3rd child. It only gets more tragic every time we hear more details. You never think this would happen but it did and we still can't believe it. We are really going to miss this guy.
About a month ago, he had written his young son a touching letter, letting him know how much he loved being his dad and how much he treasured the time they spent together. The memorial speaker, John's brother, read it toward the end of his talk. When he lost it part way thru, so did everyone in attendance. That was so hard to hear. We saw Brandon and his family three weekends ago at our Special Day assembly and he was asking us all about Lucy and when we will get her. He loved being a dad. Come to find out, his wife is pregnant again with his 3rd child. It only gets more tragic every time we hear more details. You never think this would happen but it did and we still can't believe it. We are really going to miss this guy.
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
so
i needed to laugh, and beside the funniest 3 second clip ever (on the left of schmirna falling (see middle small youtube clip)), this is a close second.
whatever
whatever
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Bad Day
Well, today was a pretty crummy day. It started out good, we had our grandma, two aunts and a cousin up for the night visiting. We shopped in the morning then went to Cheesecake Factory for lunch.
We then attended a funeral talk for a friends father. He died at the age of 59. We did not know him personally but wish we had. He was spoken of as a wonderful person. Not in the way after you die -everyone says nice things way-, but a sincerely beautiful way. He was a humble, patient and spiritual man. This in the sense that he made material sacrifices and personal sacrifices because it was the right thing to do. He was a great father of two girls and was married to his wife for 34 years. Despite hardships that we all experience through life, he never wavered in his faith and made very humble decisions for his family. Even two weeks before his cancer won, he was still planning for his parents to be taken care of when he would be gone.
As you can see, we learned a lot about the kind of person he was. Not what kind of degree he had or house he lived in. He was a good example of how to look at our life.
We then found out that a friend of ours, Brandon that we had known for many years was shot in a hunting accident today. He was 30 years old. He leaves behind a young son and 1 year old baby girl and of course his wife. We went to the wake for our friends father and when we got there saw the best friend of Brandon sitting there, obviously with no knowledge of the news we were just told. John took him aside and told him the news. I was outside when he and his wife found out and it was truly heartbreaking. They were in each others weddings and in fact, he had just been helping him yesterday with some work around his house. It was a really sad day. We then saw two accidents and a near miss accident right in front of us on the way home.
To be honest, I think it is amazing that any of us have lived this long.
I know people say different things when people die, so here is my turn. It is a fact that people have memories that will fail in time and soon we will be forgotten by people, just an old picture with our name and date scribbled on the back. It is nice to know that the one that created us has a memory that does not fail. I hope that he remembers me when the time comes. Guess I better get busy, so I am not forgotten.
We then attended a funeral talk for a friends father. He died at the age of 59. We did not know him personally but wish we had. He was spoken of as a wonderful person. Not in the way after you die -everyone says nice things way-, but a sincerely beautiful way. He was a humble, patient and spiritual man. This in the sense that he made material sacrifices and personal sacrifices because it was the right thing to do. He was a great father of two girls and was married to his wife for 34 years. Despite hardships that we all experience through life, he never wavered in his faith and made very humble decisions for his family. Even two weeks before his cancer won, he was still planning for his parents to be taken care of when he would be gone.
As you can see, we learned a lot about the kind of person he was. Not what kind of degree he had or house he lived in. He was a good example of how to look at our life.
We then found out that a friend of ours, Brandon that we had known for many years was shot in a hunting accident today. He was 30 years old. He leaves behind a young son and 1 year old baby girl and of course his wife. We went to the wake for our friends father and when we got there saw the best friend of Brandon sitting there, obviously with no knowledge of the news we were just told. John took him aside and told him the news. I was outside when he and his wife found out and it was truly heartbreaking. They were in each others weddings and in fact, he had just been helping him yesterday with some work around his house. It was a really sad day. We then saw two accidents and a near miss accident right in front of us on the way home.
To be honest, I think it is amazing that any of us have lived this long.
I know people say different things when people die, so here is my turn. It is a fact that people have memories that will fail in time and soon we will be forgotten by people, just an old picture with our name and date scribbled on the back. It is nice to know that the one that created us has a memory that does not fail. I hope that he remembers me when the time comes. Guess I better get busy, so I am not forgotten.
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