ok, i'll tell

ok, i am feeling much better since the last post (05/22). i got some feedback on the negativity of it, and i agree it was a bit rough. this adoption merry-go-round will bring the whole gamut of emotions to the fore, and we try not to post the negative turns. but this past week was unbelievable. since it has past, i might as well explain what went down.
we have come to realize that Lucy is not coming home till mid 2009. thats a positive estimate. so, we decided to pursue a second adoption thru Korea. we found an agency and we were initially accepted. this agency would have placed a child in our arms by december of this year. with our hearts racing, and endorphins in our veins, we scheduled our home study. tonya was able to finish typing up her new autobiography, and i was a couple of pages in when she came over.
she seemed nice, we made small talk... then came the bomb. she said that she found an issue with our application. our religion. even though we were initially accepted, the agency must have over looked the line that stated that we were Jehovah's Witnesses. they do not accept our faith when considering adoptions. it has to do with our stand on blood transfusions. (p.s. we do not accept blood transfusions, but we do accept every other blood alternative out there, which numbers into the dozen area). after explaining that strong memorial hospital is leading the way into non-blood surgery alternatives, and that we are very concerned about staying healthy and pursuing every avenue available to remain alive, she closed her book. that was that. our adoption hopes thru Korea ended right there. in a measure of possible comfort, she tried to tell us that there are a few religious affiliations that are not acceptable thru them, but what did that matter. we were not going to get a child from them. oh, there was one thing we could do.. we could have signed a waiver stating that we would not raise our child in the same faith, or that we would not uphold our beliefs in a time of emergency. a what??
needless to say, tonya broke down the moment she walked out our front door. that was not the visit we had expected. we really did not expect that we would have been turned down for an adoption based on religion. not in our day and age. not when a child is sitting in a metal cage in a poor nation, and we have a home, a family, a strong moral compass and most of all a ton of love to provide.
i hope whoever reads this can now understand my last post. a man exploding. it seemed to fit the moment. i didnt mean to discourage anyone. we are eagerly and happily pursuing Lucy yet.