where has the time gone?

August 18 again, our 4 year anniversary for gotcha day. all day long, I kept doing little reflections of the past.  she was such a peanut, actually still kinda is, but i thought it would be nice to do a look back while showing you the latest.

Happy Gotcha Day!

Our Olympic Swimmer

This little kid is amazing. Her lack of fear plays out well for her I the pool. So, a bit ago she decided to go without floaties, so she is real good at treading water and swimming from side to side. But now she has decide to swim underwater now, like actually swim under water. She has me counting to see how long she can hold her breath underwater. She has these little sinking jellyfish to practice going swimming to the bottom. We drop them in, they sink, and she dives under and grabs them and our toes. She learns everything we teach her in there. I will be teaching her how to properly dive next. We have pics and videos of the big kid.. But again, iPad blows and we can't upload to anything from here.

Lucy is such abig girl, it is crazy!

Well, she just graduated from preschool and we are so proud of her. She has been with the same teachers and therapists for 2 years and many of the same kids. It was hard, for me, to say goodbye. They have helped us so much and loved her just as much. Her experience was in an integrated classroom and it was so touching to see the love between the kids. Lucy got her progress report and she achieved many if not All of her social goals, tries her best with her speech and is smart as a whip. :) she also ended her last day with her part time day care. She has been with them for 3 years! Lots of changes for the little miss. She also continues to get longer legs. Every month she grows and grows and we are amazed as we watch the door jam get new tick marks to measure her height. Now for the summer. She loves the pool and can swim two lengths with no floats, she just swims it. She likes to go under water and dive for her jellyfish. Much better swimmer than most adults, including me. I am still home dealing with the effects from my concussion in march. I am completely done not feeling all better. I have days of optimism and then when I push it on the computer, read or get under lights the headaches come roaring back. I am so ready to go back to work and function normally but I have no control over when it will heal. So today is day three of my migraine and I am pushing it by typing on here. Oh well. It is what it is, right?! I will try to upload a newer pic of the big girl. It is true, they grow so fast. Someone really needs to invent time travel.

My Lucy. Now that I have some time to reflect, a lot, I have been thinking about just how much I love my little girl. Since my brain will explode in about 2minutes and counting, I need to be quick. She is just the sweetest kid in the universe. I have complete strangers telling me they know her and how much she means to them. When I was praying for mommy hood, I prayed that my girl, whoever she was, would have a good heart. A heart full of love and goodness. My prayers have been answered. She is my caretaker. If I have tears, which I don't usually want her to see, she dries them. She will tell me I will feel better soon, it just takes time. She will cover me up in my blankets, bring me drinks and sing to me. I love my Lucy soooo much. Fearing that I would not be here for her through all the years, has been freaking me out a lot lately. I know that nobody else in the world loves her as much as me and would protect her from the meanies out there in the world. Nobody else would know how to talk to her when things arent going right. Read to her the way I do and dance with her in our spot in the living room. She writes I love you and draws the cutest pics of people. I have scraps of them everywhere because I just don't want to throw any of them away. I have loved her will all my heart since I first laid eyes on her. I will always be honest with her and know we will be an amazing mommy daughter team foreva! Ok , the concussion is kicking in and I have to get off this contraption. I Wish i Could post some pics of our beautiful wonderful baby girl. Yes i know she is 5! Until then!

Still kicking...somewhat

Been a while, we are all still alive. My turn for illness is over, tonya is next. Concussion and tomorrow an MRI for any other item to explain her pain. A pain in the head. Big pain in the head.

We would upload a picture of us, but this dumb iPad does not let us do anything fun but watch overpriced movies. Our laptop is dead, so no pix for a while. So imagine Lucy bigger and cuter.

Finally, some snow!

Well, it had to happen at some time. We don't mind it really, just the bitter cold that accompanies it is a bit disturbing. Otherwise... Let it Snow!

After some coercing, we got the goose outside alone. She is not real big on doing things alone, but I can't go outside yet (pneumonia) and Tonya was having no part of it on a Sunday morning. She has a good time out there. Enjoy.