Monday, July 16, 2007

11 months today!


Lucy baby - Where are you????

We miss you!



Friday, July 13, 2007

Tagged by Tracy

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My dad named me after an ex-girlfriend of his, according to my mom

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? caught myself earlier today

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? If I am using the right pen

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Turkey

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? yea right

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I would love me

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? Yes , mostly when I am mad, John loves that ;)

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? yes

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? John and I almost did when we were 18/19 yrs old, wish we did back then because now... NEVER!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Right now, Golden Grahams

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? I wear shoes with Velcro jk

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? I am, I really am.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Everything but the...Ben and Jerry's

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Teeth

15. RED OR PINK? red?

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I am emotional

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My grandpa's!!!

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? I hope to read their answers on their blogs.

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? light blue work out pants and fluffy striped socks

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? oatmeal choc chip cookie with milk YUM!!

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? TV show

22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? navy blue, classic

23. FAVORITE SMELLS? My 6 month old nephews head

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My sister in Cali

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? yes!!

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? football

27. HAIR COLOR? Blonde

28. EYE COLOR? Blue

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope

30. FAVORITE FOOD? pizza

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy Endings

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? John Tucker must die ( don't rent it, it's stupid)

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? Blue Gap sweatshirt

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?Is fall an option?

35. HUGS OR KISSES? kisses, cause hugs come after that :)

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ?????

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? ?????

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Revelation Book

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? use a laptop at home, at work it has a palm tree and says Maui

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? So you think you can dance!!

42. FAVORITE SOUND? John's car pulling in the driveway, and he is safe and sound

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Italy (east) and Hawaii (west)

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? I have been told at work that I am very creative

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Binghamton, New York

47. WHAT SUPERPOWER WOULD YOU LIKE? being invisible

48. FAVORITE HOBBY? laying around

49. A FRIEND THAT YOU WISH YOU COULD HANG OUT MORE WITH? My sister

50. IF YOU COULD BE ANYWHERE RIGHT NOW, WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE? Home from China with my whole family meeting Lucy for the first time!

Next taggers:

Jig

Tonya (Lane Train)

Lisa (waiting for Diana)

Sharoni

11 months

Well, Monday is 11 months LID and if one more person asks me about Lucy someone will get hurt. I mean if I am not holding her or talking about her then...............SHE IS NOT HERE!!!!!! eeeerrrrr. and NO we do not know why it is taking so long and NO we do not know when it will speed up, if EVER . Ok, I needed that rant because it protects those that bug me about it from having that screamed at them. Someone told me, wow you are handling it so well as I stand there with the FAKEST smile ever. Guess they do not know me that well, but when it works I will use it.

Getting excited that Miss P our 1 yr old niece is visiting soon. My lil' sister too. We need some serious girl time. This includes chocolate chip muffins, shopping and snuggling.

We went to the county fair last night with mia beena, my other niece. I have sworn off spiral slides forever. I always get hurt when I go on slides. This time I burned a hole in my arm as it squeaked all the way down the slide. It seriously got hurt. I have no skin or hair left on my left elbow about the size of a pack of gum. Mia appreciated it though. The things we do for the kiddos in our lives!!

Well anyways, that is an update with us. I am hoping to hit the hay early tonight. SLEEPY!!

Happy 11 months to all the August LID'ers!!!

Thursday, July 05, 2007

'sup

I have this thing now, where at night I make myself day dream about the first time they hand me Lucy. I picture what the room would be like and how she would react. The noises, the unbelievable sensation about the whole experience. I think that it would be so surreal that it would make my head spin.

Then I picture being nervous the whole time while in China that they would suddenly say, we changed our mind. We want her back. Isn't that cruel to think about that kind of stuff? I always do that. Think about the worst thing ever.

I actually bought her a little duck for the tub. It is blue with big flipper feet. I hope that she loves it. In all honesty though, I seriously doubt we will ever meet her. Right now she is so far away from us. She is not even in existence. Kinda weird, huh? This little girl has so much planned out for her already. Days at the park. Story times. with her dad. Loving her family. Laughing with us. Vacations to the beach with grandma and grandpa.

Right now, I am grumpy and feel stupid for thinking about all of this stuff. It is just such a pain. It is kind of like thinking every month that I would be pregnant knowing it was negative but some twisted spot in my head just kept saying "stranger things have happened, right?". Oh yea, on that note, Congratulations to Nicole Richie- I am sure she will be a fantastic mother.

Oh well, moving on. John keeps saying be positive. Personally, my blog is not here to be a source of guidance for the adoption community. It is to express feelings right? For right now anyways.

I have to say that when one of us is down we pick the other back up. What really works is when we are both down. We get pretty funny. Picturing our referral when we are 50 years old and saying - well we are pretty much over it by now. You kind of have to be there. Trust me, we are funny.

Ok to all you optimistic waiting families- keep up the good work! You make a good name for all of us lame -o, woe is us couples.

see ya.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

one year with a penny

a look back at a year with our little miss p. thanks jay - we love it.